|This is a page about my life and my spiritual experiences with God. Here are dreams I have dreamed.
First, my best experience, I met Jesus.
Text: Carl Grinde Date: April 4, 2014
Updated April 14, 2014
I have made techno music, electro house to describe this wonderful experience
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I met Jesus in a dream -best experience ever
This is an experience in my life that I will never forget. I had this dream when I was around 16 years and I was a born again christian and active in my church. In the dream I dreamed that the door to my sleeping room was opened just a little. Then my bed slipped forward on the floor and then (still in my dream) I felt a supernatural power in my whole body pushing me with great speed up through the ceiling and out in the universe. My body, soul and my whole being was filled by this wonderful power that was so awesome and mighty! It was something totally apart from things you can imagine. It was divine power! Total extacy, joy, energy, super strong energy. This feeling was the absolute most wonderful feeling you can ever imagine just flowing through me! I would try do describe the feeling/energy like this: The meaning of life, light, happiness, eternity, energy, strenght, holiness, varmth, God, the ultimate, peace, joy, beaming, beautiful, singing, glory, extacy, absolute maximum. It was like a mighty thundering waterfall but still soft and nice. It was the happiest, nicest most wonderful experience imaginable. It was like seeing and feeling the holy eternity. I was shooting like a meteor out through space and things flashed by my eyes when I got a biblescripture from Jesus. It was Mark 10:17-21
"And when he was gone forth into the way, there came one running, and kneeled to him, and asked him, Good Teacher, what shall I do that I may inherit eternal life? And Jesus said unto him, Why call me good? there is none good but one, that is, God. You know the commandments, Do not commit adultery, Do not kill, Do not steal, Do not bear false witness, Defraud not, Honor your father and mother. And he answered and said unto him, Teacher, all these have I observed from my youth. Then Jesus beholding him loved him, and said unto him, One thing you lack: go your way, sell whatsoever you have, and give to the poor, and you shall have treasure in heaven: and come, take up the cross, and follow me. And he was sad at that saying, and went away grieved: for he had great possessions." Mark 10:17-21
It was not only a dream, it was a real divine power.
Afterwards, when the dream was over I was awake. It was not only a dream, it was a real divine power that had struck me. I lay in my bed praising God with joy for perhaps one hour or so before I could sleep. This experience has helped me later in life when I have felt depressed and sad. Anyway there is a God and he loves me. He loves you.
I think God wanted to tell me that I should give him 100%. He want's my whole heart. He wants all of me, not only half or 99%. He want's all.
There are 3 things in life often mentioned that can (depending on how you live your life) become a sin and destroy one's relation to God. These things are: money, power (influence/fame) and sexual behaviour, sexuality.
I think that for me, it's sexual behaviour, sexuality that can and has been my sin major and I think that God want's me to stop sinning and change my priorities.
So the clear message from God to me in this dream: Give up your sin and I will give you something extremely much better and even more lovely!
My body, soul and my whole being was filled by this power that was so awesome and mighty! It was something totally apart from things you can imagine. It was divine power! Total extacy, joy, energy, super strong energy. This feeling was the absolute most wonderful feeling you can ever imagine just flowing through me! I would try do describe the feeling/energy like this: The meaning of life, light, happiness, eternity, energy, strenght, holiness, warmth, God, the ultimate, peace, joy, beaming, beautiful, singing, glory, extacy, absolute maximum.
The force also hit me when I was awake
The same wonderful power from the dream once hit me when I was awake. But I was asleep first, it happened in the night. This was in the same period of my life as the first dream. In my sleep, one of my legs, the left I think, it started to jerk and because of this I became awake. It was almost like if someone had pulled my leg a little. Immediately when I woke up, the wonderful glorious feeling hit me! Bam! Totally wonderful and this time I was awake. I did not get any Bible scripture or anything this time.
Jesus's love changes the world
The life and death of Jesus christ -the key to salvation
In the liberal world of today, among atheists, agnosticism etc people find it strange that Christians wants to follow a book, the Bible.
For a non believer it might seem that we give up everything for nothing.
Say that we're crazy if you want. I'm just trying to spread the word of what I think is the truth about God, his plan for salvation through his son Jesus Christ.
The fundament for salvation is made by Jesus Christ through his perfect and pure life, innocent death, resurrection and love. But he also said "Not everyone who says to Me, Lord, Lord!' will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only the one who does the will of My Father in heaven.
God has given us much and he also expect much from us
I was at a evening service at a Church in Östersund, The Odenslunds church. It was an evening with a nun speaking about her life and relation to God.
She told about a conversation between two nuns:
"What does God demand of us?
I'm not saying that God wants us all to be monks or nuns but they way she said it sounded quite cool. It was like it was the most obvious thing in the world: everything.
There is something more in this world than we can see with our eyes
Even if this page contains many of my saddest poems about struggle in life, I wish I could communicate and share what Jesus gave me.
There is a reason why I have allowed the Bible to correct my life. Among all pleasures in life, there is something even better! God almighty.
I have felt him. Why should we allow the Bible to rule over us? Why should we follow the Bible? Because it's God's word.
Here is Ian McCormack's testimony of when he met God in heaven. Watch the whole video. It's amazing! he met God in heaven. He is now a preacher.
“The time is fulfilled, and the kingdom of God is at hand; repent and believe in the gospel.”
A bright star in the sky
One winter evening, 2011 or 2012, when I came home after I had finished work It was frosty and clear sky so I could see the stars.
I walked out on a field to pray. But I saw clouds forming in the sky blocking the wonderful view of the stars.
I prayed to Jesus that he would remove the clouds. One short moment later all the clouds was disappeared. The biggest cloud just drifted away.
The beautiful sky was open again and I could see the stars.
When I saw this I started to pray and thank Jesus for this. Immediately When I said Jesus I saw a bright star falling from the sky. A star fall normally takes 0,5 seconds. This star started in the middle of the sky, exactly in the place where I was watching and it continued over the whole sky almost down to the horizon! It lasted for about six or seven seconds and it was totally amazing.
I have been watching the sky at night many many times. I have seen satellites moving like small shiny spots. This was not a satellite. It looked almost like a comet.
Zephaniah 3:17 when I really needed it
This happened a day when I was a newborn christian at perhaps 16 years of age. I had masturbated and because of this I was totally convinced that I had sinned against the Holy spirit and I was going to hell and there was nothing that could stop this. I had a terrible feeling inside of me. It was awful.. I'm going to hell. Can you imagine the feeling? Then I called my church EFS in Östersund. Then have a daily Bible scripture you can hear by telephone.
It was Sephanya 3:17. "The LORD your God among you is powerful— he will save and he will take joyful delight in you. In his love he will renew you with his love; he will celebrate with singing because of you."
The special thing is that I got a letter from a christian friend the same day. In that letter she also gave me Zephaniah 3:17! Two times the same day, exactly when I needed those words more than ever! Can this be a coincidence? I don't think so. I think it was Jesus. Oh thank you Jesus!
The LORD your God among you is powerful— he will save and he will take joyful delight in you. In his love he will renew you with his love; he will celebrate with singing because of you.
January/February 2014 don't know exactly.
A dream about finishing my contest
I dreamed I was doing cross country skiing. It was a speedy race and I had some kind of competitor or enemy following me or competing with me. Even though I looked back I could not see him but I knew he was there, something chasing me. It was in the late season of the winter and the ski tracks were a little slippery and slushy and some small branches from fir-trees had fallen down on the ski tracks. I was among the last participants and the race was sort of already over. It was in the late season of the winter and also in the late part of the competition so I could see many traces made by the other competitors. When I could see the finish line a little bit further away I noticed that the ski tracks was split up and and became quite wide and took several different directions, like if people had lost their way, missed the correct way just before the finish line. The path was wide and lots of it was leading outside the finish line. Sometimes in a dream you just know things. There was no visible banner in the air but I knew the finish line was down to the right so I took that direction. Just before the goal there was a little mud in one track, not a big problem but just a little obstacle. I guess it was because the tracks were old, the competition had been going on for a long while and the spring had almost started so this is why the ground had become visible for just a short distance, perhaps only 50 centimeters. I crossed the finish line. There were hardly any people there. I could only see a female contestant who had just crossed the finish line. She carried her skis, wearing proper ski attire, slimmed. She used some spray on her body. It was some kind of athletic body treatment. I had this dream perhaps before christmas 2013 or some weeks after.
Around Christmas or so 2013
A dream about not being ready
For me, this dream was about heaven. I dreamed that there was a big birthday party or a wedding. Many happy people celebrating. But I was not at the party. I was in the room next door hearing all the sounds of the celebration. I had been sitting there for quite a long while. It was almost like if I waited it out. Like if I almost expected the celebration to be over soon. Finally I thought that it would be best if I left the room and went to the celebration party because if I didn't go soon the party would be over. Still I was just sitting there by my self. I was eating on a raw tomatoe.. like a little cheap feeling sort of. I was holding on to the little that I already had. Next scene in the dream I suddenly was at the party but my feet were bare. I remember thinking, perhaps I should get something on my feet? I think I had this dream some time before christmas of 2013.
"The Kingdom of Heaven is like a treasure that a man discovered hidden in a field. In his excitement, he hid it again and sold everything he owned to get enough money to buy the field.
The cross fell off my neck
The cross I wear aroúnd my neck has fallen off and down to the floor at 5 occasions. For me, I see this as God's way of talking to me and correcting me when I'm doing wrong.
It feels like he is saying: Hey Carl what are you doing?
This has happened on my work but also at home. When the cross has fallen off my neck. I realize that God wanted to tell me something.
one example, this was a few days after easter and I had prayed quite much that easter, sitting in the sun, thinking about Jesus, praying to him. It felt like I was focusing on the real thing this easter, Jesus.
The week after easter my cross fell off my neck in the morning. I put it around my neck again thinking: this cross really mean something for me, it's a symbol of my faith in Jesus. When I put the golden chain around my neck I said to my self: I'm standing up for my faith in Jesus.
Later the same day at my work I was cleaning a table. A woman said to me: Isn't it nice that the easter is over? I quickly said: yes. And the second after I realized what I had done. I had denied my faith in Jesus infront of her. It all happened so quickly. I felt stupid.
I think it was a few days later or perhaps some weeks. I met the same woman again. I reminded her of our previous meeting and her comment about how nice it was that easter was over and me saying "yes". And now I told her that I believed in Jesus, that he had risen from the dead, and that my easter had been quite pleasant.
Actually this thing, the whole story has happened to me twice but at another place and with another person. Exactly the same, my cross falling off in the morning at easter, the second time it was on another job, the radio was on, they spoke about Jesus. My working mate said: Well but I guess there are nobody that believes in these things nowadays. I replied: no. And I felt stupid.
Next day at work, or if it was a few days later I told him that I had faith in Jesus and that I thought that he had resurrected, and that I was a christian.
In 2013 I was doing an illustration for my blog. It was a stupid ironic illustration about hiv/aids and I was writing: Aids is king. My cross fell off my neck twice when I was doing that illustration. I never finished it, I never used it.