God is awesome and He loves us all. Through my faith in Jesus Christ - the Son of God - Messiah, I have a new life. I want to share with you the gospel, the happy message of eternal salvation through faith in Jesus to others. I also want to inspire others to prayer and this page is about this.
I had a psychotic breakdown in the summer of 2020
God had also tried to talk to me and say that my ascetic lifestyle had achieved its purpose and that I could, among other things, start eating normally again, relax a little or something. Unfortunately, I did not really understand this but continued my ascetic way of life with a strict diet (low in energy, low in fat) and an hour of prayer in the middle of the night. I have also carried a lot of negative, destructive emotions that flared up in self-destructive behavior with the psychosis. It all started a little sneaky, I started hearing thoughts like comments on my prayer among other things. One thing I have learned through this is that salvation is due to God's Goodness, Love and Grace, not to religious deeds. Because God is good and loving toward us, He expects us to be so toward others, not just toward Christians but toward all. I can not bear to re-write about all pages but from July 2020 I pray about 1 hour a day and I am no longer a vegetarian, I do not pray an hour in the middle of the night either. It feels like God is showing that he wants me to still keep the prayer times so I do, but instead of 1-2 hours at lunch, I pray much less, maybe 15 minutes at lunch, sometimes a whole hour. The other prayer sessions have also become very much shorter, between 1-15 minutes o so. But God has warned me that my cellphone and computer can easily become idols for me and possibly stand in the way of me in the rapture of the church. I pass that warning on to you who read. Consider for yourself, what fills your thoughts?